How long?

How long will it take for me to gain enough self respect to let go?



Yeah, I wish I knew the answer too.

Long Gone

It’s so like you just to show up at my door
And act like nothin’s happened
You think I’ll sweep my heart up off the floor
And give it to you
Like so many times before
You’re talking to a stranger
I’m not that girl anymore

That girl is long gone
Boy you missed the boat it just sailed away
Long gone
She’s not drowning in her yesterdays
Betcha never thought I’d be that strong
Well this girl is long gone

Don’t waste your breath with baby baby please
Cuz I am so not listening
Don’t bother getting down upon your knees and try to beg me
I’m tired of how you twist the truth
You’re not talking to the same girl
Who used to forgive you

Gone like the wind under Superman’s cape
Like a thief in the night I made the great escape
I’m not the kind of girl that keeps making the same mistakes

Things that make me smile lately...

Having Brandon back in my life, even if it is only as friends :)

Blaring loud music in the car

Dancing

Smoking Hookah

Bob's Boathouse :)

Sleeping in

I can't go there

I want to be ok...but how?

Never in my life have I wanted to hit someone like I do at this very moment in time!

Complicated words slippin off of your tongue and ain't one of them the truth...I'm still desperate for you.

Ugh...I take back my stance on being really really good, I'm just really really tired today and sick of fucking drama, thats for sure!

Lessons Learned

I am feeling extremly strong right now so here in this moment I will state to you my new goals:

Moving On, I will find someone who can treat me right

Going back to school in September

Finding a new job where I am happy

Getting my liscense

Paying off the rest of my debt

Moving Out

I haven't really set a date or anything for these goals, but I'm going to do them come hell or high water. I feel incredible today :) So yay for me!