So this post may be kind of long...I'm apologizing now for that and also for the fact that I have a tendency to ramble about nothings.
So things that are new? Well Larry has been gone now for four months, and yes they have been four VERY long months. I don't remember if I posted earlier on about how he has been visiting me lately, but he has and it has been frequent, dare I say that it really irks me?
The wise old man told me once that life will never make since, not until the end. I dare say that he is right about this for sure. Things with Dan are continually weirder and weirder everyday.
I heard "Tim McGraw" by Taylor Swift which makes my mind always wander back to Brandon...hmmmm
Vanna is due in October...ITS A BOY! and I'm pretty damn excited!
Friday, June 13, 2008
Friday, June 6, 2008
Bring me down
SO yes I realize that I just posted but I don't feel as though I expressed my thoughts enough if this post makes no sense its because its just a rambled bit of my current thoughts.
I don't understand why, why it is so hard for you to love me, why is it that you can be with other girls and still come back to me?
Why can't you just love me for me? For the person that I am.
I love you so deeply that I fear my life without you in it, why is it that you can drop me, so fast?
I know your with her tonight, and yet I pretend as though I don't I pretend that everything is just fine.
Another day gone by with broken dreams.
Sometimes I feel as though no matter how fast I run, I will never escape you, why is that?
She loves you and you need but there are some things we can't share.
I want to find somewhere I can ease my mind, try to heal my wounded pride.
I don't understand why, why it is so hard for you to love me, why is it that you can be with other girls and still come back to me?
Why can't you just love me for me? For the person that I am.
I love you so deeply that I fear my life without you in it, why is it that you can drop me, so fast?
I know your with her tonight, and yet I pretend as though I don't I pretend that everything is just fine.
Another day gone by with broken dreams.
Sometimes I feel as though no matter how fast I run, I will never escape you, why is that?
She loves you and you need but there are some things we can't share.
I want to find somewhere I can ease my mind, try to heal my wounded pride.
Leave the Pieces When you Go...
I write this tonight, not completly positive as to where I stand. At this moment in time I'm not exactly sure how I feel or if I even have the right to feel this way. I am in my dark place right now, and its hard to see clearly still.
In my hour of need, of despartion I look around and I'm not sure where to turn or where I'm supposed to go. I'm not sure where to look or what hand I should be grabbing.
I don't know where to go in my hour of darkness or who to let hold onto me.
I'm not sure that really I should be surprised but for some reason I let myself be. I let this fear of him overwhelm me, I let it consume every inch of my being.
because I'm so stupid but being without him in my life is unbearable im so miserable without him I know he's cheating I KNOW and I won't let myself say anything because I don't want to lose him.
In my hour of need, of despartion I look around and I'm not sure where to turn or where I'm supposed to go. I'm not sure where to look or what hand I should be grabbing.
I don't know where to go in my hour of darkness or who to let hold onto me.
I'm not sure that really I should be surprised but for some reason I let myself be. I let this fear of him overwhelm me, I let it consume every inch of my being.
because I'm so stupid but being without him in my life is unbearable im so miserable without him I know he's cheating I KNOW and I won't let myself say anything because I don't want to lose him.
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